Loss

April 18, 2016

Babies. Hello. I am back. I am emo. I am anxious. I am excited.

Should start the dot any minute, and aren’t you glad you know that. My boobs also feel huge, so it’s safe to say that life is pretty good over here.

While I tried my best to stay active and take some Pilates and yoga classes when in California, I was more sedentary than usual, and so you can understand how I felt post-hot yoga this morning. To put it mildly…

IT WAS EVERYTHING times infinity. 

As I get older, I see and feel how important movement is to my overall well-being; i.e. I’m not a moody, psycho bitch when I workout. Our physical well-being and mental well-being go hand-in-hand, people. KNOW THIS, then apply it to your life for the win.

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LOSS

Many of you know (and if not, now you do) my Grandmother passed away on Friday April 8th – I found out 30 minutes before I left for the airport to fly 7 hours to California. 🙁 Such sadness. I’m not telling you this so you can have pity on me. I am telling you this, because her passing is the first time I think I’ve ever experienced a great loss, and I thought my sharing would help me grieve – I was a lot younger when my other grandparents died.  I never imagined life without her in it, and even though I only saw her about once a year, she was a constant in my life since as far back as I can remember. I got a card for EVERY holiday. She never forgot, and it seems like, even after 90 years of living, it ended too soon. I don’t think we are ever ready for anyone we love to die. EVER. I’ve also noticed that I hate funerals in general. I don’t like feeling sad – I don’t think anyone does – but it’s an important part of the healing process, I am finding…

I’ll finish this thought with a phenomenal photo of me with my Mama, Grandma and sister back when I was, oh, about 4 years old.

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…To give this heavy topic some comic relief, can we all agree that I had lego-hair? It literally looks like I have a helmut of hair that clipped onto my head. Thanks for the stylish haircut, Madge…

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Now, go into your weeks with this in mind…

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(BL = Bethany Lyons).

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